Wednesday, January 30, 2013

What's pushing my buttons...

What irks the mess out of me... Laziness! Excuses! Selfishness! Yeah yeah I'm sick and I shouldn't do half of the stuff I do but if I have energy and I pace myself I'm all good. So why is it that ppl who are well capable of doing everyday stuff like take care of your own child, clean your own mess, cook your own food, be active, go to work, etc..are so lazy where they find excuses, have others dot it for them, or just flat out ignore it. Why do some ppl choose to do other non- important tasks rather than spend time with their child or spouse, do a task,a chore around the house,anything? Selfishness... I wake up every morning at 730 feed my child a full breakfast and eat with him, wash clothes, clean up any mess, take care of the dog, school my child, take him to an activity around town, feed him lunch, put him down for nap, as he sleeps I do emails and scheduling and try to nap myself, then I take him somewhere outdoors,then prepare dinner, then play, discipline, entertain, bathing,read books, and put to bed,then while he sleeps I get the next day ready and then I can finally rest usually by 1030 -11 I can close my eyes on a good night....I do this everyday along with constant momma momma momma in my ear while I try to stay calm to be a good role model without going crazy on a 2 yr old. All while I'm hurting, aching, flaring, exhausted, wanting to give up but can't...and ppl complain bout their day at work or school..I would love to switch places sometimes. Stop being so lazy...you are what you make of your life..if you wake up and say its a shitty day well you bet it will be. I wake up every morning thanking God I woke up and then I get dressed with intentions of it being a productive and amazing day! The night before I set out a schedule if things I'm going to do the next day. Even if I don't do them all I look forward to something. Even if it's tons of drs appts I look forward to them. I enjoy my life I enjoy that I'm still live so why waste it by laying in bed or siting around complaining? Even when I hurt I only let myself sleep at most 2 hrs bc I do have a son to take care of instead of relying on someone else. He gives me motivation. Stop with the excuses... I can give a million that are legit but why not just push through? Stop being selfish and get priorities rt. love and do for others it will make ou feel good, trust me. Had to vent a bit just tired of seeing and hearing these very things. When I do so much even in pain,fatigue,swelling,collapsing, and all! Of I can manage so can you! Just remember that I never have a day, minute, or hour off..i always have my son and when I don't I always have the beasts that wear me out like a kid..haha and ppl want to complain....

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