come on, let me stick a needle in you for fun

Dummdummdummmmm...the day has arrived. The kidney biopsy! So I have never ever been in the hospital except for giving birth to Aiden and he was all natural. I don't take meds for anything not even a headache. So this is beyond scary for me. Picture this being laid out on a cat scan bed with three people over you saying don't move one bit, breathe when I say so,hold your breathe when I tell you to,and remember stay still while we poke a large needle in your organ...drum roll please....while you are wide awake!!!! I mean I may seem strong and all but really! Why can't you just give me a gas mask to knock me out..I really wont move then :) but luckily they are dealing with me on a really good day ( go figure, I feel amazing on a day that I'm in the hospital for 8hrs) but I was in a really happy,positive,no achey mood. So I held my breathe said my prayers and put my trust and faith in their hands. I kept praying the same prayer I prayed when I was giving birth.." God doesn't give me obstacles I cannot handle,he never leaves my side,pain never lasts forever,and Genn just breathe and know this soon will pass" I told the nurses ans drs to talk but not about what they are doing. I said talk about food, what they have to do after work,how the weather was..anything but what they were doing. Bc when they described it before taking me in..ugh it was horrible to imagine. In my drs voice who so happened to be so calm and adorable "so Genn I'm going to make some marks on you with a marker then we will take some scans and have you breathe in out and then hold it a cpl of times then I will come in and inject a numbing medicine that unfortunay burns and will probably be the most pain you feel today then I will insert needles until we have the right spot then I will go in with the needle and with a gun take out the tissue. It makes a really loud noise like a nail stapler so don't jump and be aware. You ready bc we are?" I mean can you imagine all that and on your body wide awake?!! I being a weirdo dug my nail into.my hand to make pain somewhere else so I could focus on that and not what they were doing. It helped but that numbing medicine was killer!!!! I didn't feel a thing after I was like so are yall gonna start now with the needles. They said Haha you have a huge needle In your back rt now. I was thrilled bc I couldn't feel anything well...until that darn "gun" the POW of it didn't startle me just the rushing pain from back through my side to my stomach freakin killed me!!!! The dr who took it which was a man that I will never forget (that's later on, on why) and the sweet Dr lady asks sir do you feel you got enough he says yes..he looks at in a microscope..she says are you sure. That kind of scares me but say I'm trusting you all. He says In his exact annoying dumb man voice ( can you tell I'm a little annoyed by him ) I believe I have gotten enough of this poor young girl don't you think Mrs Throneburg! I say I hope so. Well douchebag....YOU DIDN'T! I get a phone call two days later from my kidney Dr saying in an apologetic voice they didn't even get enough to semi test. He was supposed to check in the microscope and make sure before sending you back to recovery. I'm so sorry Genn but...you have to do it again. I cry he cries I yell and get mad he says he told them this next visit is on them. Unlike any normal person I don't heal fast so I can't just go get another biopsy I have to wait a month. A whole month to where my kidneys could keep failing or lupus spreads or anything. Oh I have a sour taste in my mouth for sure...