suck it up and go...

So I have been having major headaches,joint pains,fatigue,blurry vision,and just flat out not feeling good. Like any normal person we procrastinate on going to doctor bc A. We don't have insurance B. Scared to get results C. Thinks they can just sleep or nyquil it off :) well I have been saying I've been hurting or just tired for a while now but more since I had my son in 2010. I seriously felt my head hurt from either allergies,toothache,or work. I thought my joints hurt bc arthritis ran in my family or bc of my work. I thought I was always exhausted bc of work or my child Aiden. I thought my eyes hurt bc of my allergies, not wearing my glasses, staring at a computer screen, or yet again from work. I guess you can say I tried to ignore the signs my body kept sending me. My husband,Chris made me promise that in the new year I would go see a Dr to just get a check up since with insurance you get a free one for the year. Well, yet again I sorta pushed it out. But I felt like complete crap all the time. It wasn't until I quit my job making jewelry and got a simple cafe job and I actually had time to make an appt. Well, I was driving home one day and I blacked out..I count see I luckily didnt have Aiden with me but I only blacked out for a min or so which felt like forever. I was at a red light and ppl were honking. I saw a cop and he came to ask me what was wrong. I didn't know what was happening but all I know was at this point..everything was blurry as if I were going blind. Basically from that incident I made an appt with an amazing primary care Dr..Dr Shiffman immediately. My appt was Jan 25th 8am. I went in they took my vitals. In my head I thought am I diabetic,am I hypo-glycemic, or am I just not eating rt. I have been losing a lot of weight since birth of my son. Like every woman wishes I completely lost my baby weight plus some. I started out before pregnancy 120-125lbs on that drs visit I was 118lbs and sadly to say as of today I am 108lbs. I'm only 5'4 in height so I'm little as can be ( in my eyes) the wind could blow me down that's for sure. So the Dr says I'm definitely not diabetic but anemic which I knew. Told him lupus is in my family. He take more blood more pee and says he will get back to me in a week. Well it was the next day bc it was serious. He tells me..you have thyroid problems, you have anemia,you have some protein in your kidneys...wait for it...tells me to take a seat and deep breathe and bear with him..Genn my darling you are positive for Lupus..